Friends

I don't know if its me or them. Maybe my expectations are too high. Maybe what i want in a friend is unrealistic. Is it too much to act for my friends to treat me fairly and the way i treat them. And is it a crime to get a little mad sometimes. Today we were outside at the park and i wanted to go back to the school for a sec just to check to see who was in my class. I asked my friends if they would go with me and they weren't even nice or apologetic. they were like, "ha, no" or "hell no". so i got mad and i left. just the other day I stayed with Yelena even though i wanted to go somewhere else, and i told her she doesn't do the same for me and she is like, OK I'll owe you. so much for that crap. and i went with Melissa to another room, even though she almost never does for me, and i needed to get to my locker. I was pissed off. and then after Melissa calls me and asks why i ignored her when she said hi after. and when i said i was mad she is all "OK whatever" and starts saying how its a good thing i won't be seeing any of them until the next school year. cause apparently we won't be seeing each other all summer. She will be busy working and Kelly is too lazy and i don't know what other excuses she came up with.

no matter what happens i know i will be OK. I am used to being abandoned by those who are supposed to love me. and i have been on my own for so long, i know i will be fine. but it still hurts to think that she at least thinks the friendship is over. and we have been mad at each other in the past and it usually blows over, but what if it doesn't? it is still really sad that a bunch of great friendships could end like this. and it is soo stupid.

did i over react, or was i right to be annoyed?

I am not mad at them any more, just Melissa now