Losers

right now i feel as though i am only friends with them because i have no one better to hang out with. all this drama all the time. its so draining. and then i start to feel like what is the point. obviously we are not such good friends if the thought of her gets me all pissed off. I feel as though i am split. on one hand when things are good, we have lots of fun. but then it takes so long to get there. I am finally getting some freedom, and i want to go out and enjoy it. but its such a pain when no one wants to go out because of money or permission issues. which is fine except it only seems to go one way and if i say no they get all pissy. plus half the time one will say yes, and then back out so everyone does. that makes me the most mad, cause it screws up all the plans.

and why is it that she can listen to her music and its fine, but if i put on the music i like she calls it stupid. just cause you don't like something doesn't make it stupid. she just gets so i don't care and it annoys me, cause its almost like "i don't care about the friendship". and now she is spewing all this you hanged crap and calling me a bad friend.

but i am lucky that i have atleast one friend who i know i am in good terms with all the time.

all i want is a group of friends were we go and hang out and do more than just go to wonderland. is that too much to ask for?